Praise the Lord for His mercy endures forever=)

Friday

Cell grp was so good! I shared the revelation i had the day before. Saying is time to bring back God presence, is time to go home and find rest. That day holy spirit rain down everyone was ministered greatly by this sweet presence =) God is so good even we don't deserve it.

Saturday

Learned a painful lesson in church but is really worth it. During worship I hear God asking me to give away the money that I have in wallet, to me is a huge amount and I need to buy things that I wanted. So I actually struggle because i doubted.

So I actually asked God why should I give, He say ' which is more imp money or my heart'? So as I say Lord i want you more than money and this money I give is nth compared to what Christ has done. I giving is not because I want blessing, because I want His heart, I am not buying His heart=) I am seeking God 1st. Money can't make God stronger you see.

I came across this passage of this widow who gave away her 2 cent coin even she is so poor, and she gave it her best. The rich only give away their extra. The poor widow even she is so poor and lacking she know the heart of worship. Relationship with the Lord exceed everything in life. That is all I have, i gave it all to the Lord=) Jesus take it all=) God no need the money at all in the 1st place.

Y give? one word love.

Yes heart of worship. More than music, more than money. Is the heart, a heart that is hungry for the Lord. Seek ye first the kingdom of God.........

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After church fellowship, I went to Brandon's house to play His computer. After that we prayed for 1 hr didn't expect that at all, because God rain down His presence on us. Brandon say he see a vision of me, becoming a successful photographer in wedding shooting a bride with passion. Next thing he say is a rainbow, is actually a promise of God, His covenant with us.

Next thing He also sense for my family. That when I go back I will carry this presence of the Lord back. Greater things yet to come. For me personally I saw this light that shine into my family, is actually the angel guarding it=) my friend he confirmed this vision from the Lord.

Well God is so good really=)

Wah is soon 5 min to 2 am.

I am so excited.

This few day been a up and down journey with the Lord. Why up and down? Is like today I can fly but the next day I am so dead and rotten. Some days I just felt so drained and worried I just felt so tired out.

Just a few words for the Lord things are so different.

Just now was gathering with some of my cell members. As on the way back, I felt a prompting to go punggol park and rest from the holy spirit. I know I need to settle some issue with God. When I reach the park, I being to talk to the Lord and tell Him how I feel and how scared I am.

After that He told me pluck in your MP3 and worship me with songs. As I worship the Lord, this song call 'draw me close to you' at the point of time, I recall a story about the Prodigal Son.

I believe many of you know this story. At that point of time my context is the heart of a father. The overwhelming respond when He saw His son coming back home. Yes that excited and overwhelming feeling. The Lord does not blame us when we go astray, everyone go astray no matter how close you are to the Lord. We go astray because we love to depend on our own strength, we love to seek the earthly treasure, we are impatience to wait for the Lord to prepare His stuff. Maybe today you came home, the very next day you ran out again to seek.

The Lord is asking me to go home. At that point of time tears being to flow down. I am being reminded how broken I am in the past and how much I need the Lord. Is just that simple child like faith 'yes father'. No matter bad we are He still wait for us at home to hug us although it hurts.

I am worried about giving up certain things and also worried about my future ect. But the Lord told me, there is no need to do anything to make Him stronger because He is already perfect.

What He want is me going back home to rest. This is the little gift that all I can give, no matter what I do He won't close the door. That is his unfailing love, the love that melts.

Next thing I ask, then Lord why you ask people to do your work. He say I no need people to do for me, He is looking for willing souls, willing to do His work because they know the work is the very heart of the father, His very burden, His work will no longer be work already but out flowing. Whenever we feel tired out we should just go home and drink from Him.

1 day in His court is indeed better than 1000 days else where. The Lord allows us to get out of the House because there important lesson He want to teach us when we get home.

At time we just so impatience to wait for the Lord, at time we should just find rest and be still and know that He know every single desire in our heart=)

what more can I share? I am just excited because His mercy endure forever!

A draining week that I seek the Lord less often and depend on my own strength. I felt so drained out and lost.

I knew is time to go back to the Lord and be filled by His very presence. Not money, not future, not lust and not sin can fill this thing I am searching. Is the very presence of the Lord, fill my hunger and thirst.

I just keep telling the Lord just now, I want Him, i want Him. I just bow down knee down just as the spirit lead. I felt this very hard to explain kind of feeling in the heart, the Lord is being high and lifted up when I just do what He say because total obedience.

After I pray half way I can't anymore, felt this heavy thing in my heart that make me like can't breathe well, so i just go flat and rest, as the music flow, I felt is the very heart pain of the Lord, the very pain that Jesus died on the cross and see people can't be bothered. The Lord seem to say I want to destroy them I can't because I love them. They don't want Me i felt so pain because they lose something. Even christian just want to do program and attend church and the Lord just want them to stop doing for Him because He no need He just want them.

I want Him more than gold and sliver, i only tasted a bit i want more.